Letterboxd
I don't really like most movies that much. Like I watch them sometimes, but not the way some people watch them. A fact I confront on my bi-yearly letterboxd stalks, one of which I just went on (you people really love movies, huh?). It's a pretty boring fact, or so you'd think. But alas, I just need it to be something more. I need me not liking movies to be some terrible character flaw which I must amend ("I have to train myself to like movies now now now!"). Or otherwise it's evidence of my high-minded sophistication ("how could I possibly deign to partake in such plebeian chaff?").
This is a problem of mine. I need to ascribe meaning to every move I make. Everything action I take is tea-leaves to be read, some peek into my inner world. I take a shit and squint my eyes and tilt my head, waiting for it to tell me I'm an Aries Hufflepuff or something (but I'm a Gryffindor don't get it twisted xD). God my ape brain just wants to sort. Who am I to deny her that?
Unfortunately for me, sometimes a spade is just a spade. Of course everything I do is a manifestation of my me-ness, but if I go looking for the me-ness in every little thing I do, I'll just exhaust myself. I already have. Self-scrutiny in the name of "self-improvement" is such a bitch. God this is such a 20-year-old problem. I'll enjoy it while it lasts.
Anyways, yeah. I don't really like most movies that much.
1/21/2025